Forbidden fruit you have tasted; for all pleasures you have felt were wasted. The knowledge and power that you seek; it almost killed you; the father you truly seeked. For the fear of the father has been eternally instilled in me, for I have seen hell; the existential entrapment I did not see. For listen to me, there is good and evil on this earth; I had to burn through hell and be reborn to see my worth; the validity of my heart will guide me to the end, for it is I Saint Matthew that will follow for what I was meant. Entrapped in sin the world may be, no longer will I conform and just be. I will follow my heart until the end, celibate until the love of my life can forgive my eternal sin.